Idaman Hati

Masa aku belajar kat UPM zaman degree dulu, berpuluh2 helai baju t-shirt UPM dan kolej kediaman aku ada, dari orientasi sampai la graduasi. Mostly bukan la sbb terpaksa, (erm.. ada jgk la sket2, sbb byk kali jadi AJK dan mengikuti aktiviti), tp mmg di dalam diri aku sendiri pon tertanam semangat kekitaan dan bangga pada identiti diri dan komuniti (sense of belonging) yg tinggi, kalo x masakan aku nak join aktiviti2 pelajar yg mmg time consuming itu (sampai received Anugerah Naib Canselor - mengenang kecemerlangan zaman silam sket bole ke? hikhik). Heck, baju2 T-shirt tu semua masih tersimpan elok, even ada sehelai dua yg made its way to UK okeh? Mmg added advantage la sbb baju T lengan panjang.




So it was only natural for me to be gunning for the same kind of T-shirt, or they sell it as hoodies here at the University of Plymouth. You know, the typical every Univeristy hoodies, yg ada the name of the university written in bold letters across the chest tuh. Cantekkkk sgt. Pelbagai kaler ada - merah, biru hijau, hitam, grey tua, grey muda, orange, brown, pink, purple, cyan, lime green, putih, hot pink, you name it, it's there. Dah lama aku usha2, tp x juga beli2. Sbbnya, i have been refraining myself from buying, with a promise (to myself), that when I am officially a PhD student, I will treat myself to it.

You see, a lot of the programmes in the UK don't offer a PhD programme at first, but an MPhil/PhD instead. After an upgrade (examined through the transfer report), baru la they will determine whether or not student itu dan researchnya mencapai taraf utk meneruskan PhD atau setakat MPhil. So it is a very big deal, especially to scholarship receiving students, sbbnya kalo x lps, mungkin sponsors pon suruh balik la kot (nauzubillah!) coz they are funding for a PhD.

Alhamdulillah, last Friday I got the news from my SV. He had first emailed me, but I didn't reply immediately bcoz was out looking after Aisyah since Hubs had gone to Jumaat prayers. But I got back into the lab just in time, for he had personally walked down into the lab to tell us the news. I was so surprised, as the whole process was very quick, I didn't think I'd hear from them until late March or April. The examining and review process normally takes two months to complete. But apparently, according to my SV, I was being examined all this while, and my examiner was actually there in the lecture room when I did my seminar not long ago. In fact, you know when you're doing public speaking, and you get nervous, you're supposed to find the least intimidating face and focus on that person and ignore the rest of the menacing looking crowds to calm your nerves down? Well, org itu adalah my examiner rupanya, yg pada masa itu aku pon x tahu! Kalo tahu, sure nervous. Apa pon, setinggi2 syukur kepada Allah...!




And so, officially, I am a PhD student, and perjuangan ini harus diteruskan kerana byk lg cabaran yg bakal mendatang. Terima kasih kepada semua yg telah mendoakan dan memberikan sokongan moral, keep them coming, I really, really appreciate it and pray that Allah keep al of us in his grace selalu.

And yes, I couldn't run any faster to the Student Union shop to get the hoodies. Lucily Hubs was still around town so I made him turn around and photographed silly me the perkarangan University hihi ;P