Kisah Medical Checkup

Semlm aku ke Pusat Kesihatan sekali lg utk siapkan medical checkup itu hari. Bersama2 aku adalah mak aku and Aisyah. So understandably, aku agak stressed out bila lambat giler service. Yg part buat check BP, height, weight, vision, etc tu ok, cpt je, tp nak masuk dapat endorsement dari Dr, Ya Allah, lambatnya. Tp mmg student ramai giler pon yg sakit. Tu lebih menambahkan kerisauan aku sbb aku bawak newborn bersama kan. Aku berdoa semoga Baby dijauhkan la dari segala penyakit yg berjangkit. On a cheerier note, masa timbang tu, berat aku still maintain. Woohoo! Sukanye… aku ingat naik berat badan, coz aku makan x hengat dunia, hinggakan mak aku suruh stop2 la makan u, beringat sket. Kalo breastfeeding tu memainkan peranan, then all the more reason la to continue, Alhamdulillah…

Ok berbalik pada servis yg lmbat tu, aku siap ckp dekat staff nurse tu dua kali dah, yg aku belum dilayan w/pun dah melebihi waiting period yg ditetapkan iaitu 22 minit (ISO la kunun tuh). For the record, aku tunggu 40 minit. Yg buat aku bengang ialah nurse yg rata2 muda tu semua address aku ngan panggilan ‘Adik’, ingat aku 1st sem student la tu, nak wat medical checkup, so dia bo-layan. Walaupon agak flattering org cas kite muke muda, it does work against me sometimes, like right now. Last2 aku terpaksa la ckp, ‘I have a baby waiting outside, who can get cranky any time now since it’s past her feeding time, so if u could please speed things up, I would really appreciate it’. Lps tu la baru diorg kelam kabut cari Dr.

Masa masuk jumpa Dr tu, siap Dr bole sindir lg, ‘Lama sgt ke menunggu tu?’. Between gritted teeth, I muttered, ‘Lama la jugak, lebih la daripada 22 minit tu.’ Two can play at this game. Anyway aku explained la aku post partum nih, and Aisyah who is exclusively breastfed ada kat luar, yada yada ya. Boleh plak lps tu Dr kata, ok, gi lab dulu, amik air kencing, then gi bilik x-ray, pas tu dtg balik jumpa dia. X sampai 2 minit pon aku kat dlm bilik dia tu. Geramnya!

Nasib kat makmal n kat Bilik X-Ray, segalanya cpt. Lps tu aku masuk la balik bilik Dr. Lps Dr cek lebih kurg, dia tanya aku pernah wat surgery x, aku ckp la pernah, C-section, specifically. Dia pon tanya la aku bersalin kat mana, aku pon jawab la HPAN. Then Dr tanya mcm2 lg, pasal servis kat HPAN tu, aku bersalin ngan sapa, pakej berapa harga, sekali consultation berapa. Rupe2nyer Dr pon tgh planning, nak bersalin kat HPAN. Wah, lps tu terus jd cam member la kitaorg. Aku x kisah berkongsi cerita ngan bakal ibu ni, hehehe… Siap rasa cam aku lak Dr, kekekeke…. Sebenarnya aku dah pernah bbrp org tanya psl servis di HPAN, siap ada org yg aku x kenal approach melalui friendster Tanya pendapat dsbnya. Aku rasa la, if I get RM10 for every time I recommend HPAN, I’d say I’m at least RM 100 richer. Kesudahannya, aku n Dr tu settle dlm keadaan baik la :)

Yg paling penting, medical check up aku sudah siap. Settle satu lg perkara, Alhamdulillah…

Life After 40

... days that is.

Yup, I survived the 40 days in confinement unscathed, hehe. Merdeka!

Aisyah on the other hand has grown up so fast and developed so much over the entire period. Some of the things she can do now:

- push ups
- turn head from left to right during tummy time
- flip from tummy to back
- clasp and unclasp her hand, though no grabbing yet
- smile
- giggle
- kick
- coo
- eyes follow sound/object
- respond towards sound
- sang one syllable ‘Ba’… or what sounded like it

Alhamdulillah, I am so blessed to be able to experience this and I love every minute of it. I just dread the fact that I have more or less two weeks before my maternity leave ends. Boohoo...

Here's a pic of Baby Aisyah posing gaya merdeka at 40 days.

Merdeka!

Perkakas Baby

Utk beberapa hari dlm minggu lps, Aisyah x dpt nak tido lena. Bila dipangku, nyenyak bukan main, then bila letak di crib mcm biasa, x sampai 5 minit dia jaga. Repeat la bbrp kali proses ni. Usually ok sbb bole gilir2 ngan my mom but it really got to me on Saturday la, coz everyone had plans and was out, including Hubs who had a meeting (yes, meeting) at his office, leaving Aisyah on my own terms. So mmg aku x dpt nak mandi, bersarapan, let alone do laundry.

When my Mom got back from her mengaji class, she suggested that maybe Aisyah wanted to sleep on a swing (buai spring tu). I would like to avoid the swing at all cost, if possible, sbb takut nnt dah jd habit dia nak tido mesti masuk buai, nnt nak sambung blaja pon dia nak buai susah la, x kan nak kena import dari M'sia. Then I remembered that Aisyah's crib came with a swing attached to it, cuma we all x guna coz in the beginning it looked like Aisyah was gayat and made a fuss bila org rocked her while she was in it. This time, I tried putting her in the swing and voila! She slept the entire afternoon in it! Looks like she's ready for it this time. Selesai satu masalah, Alhamdulillah...

Rock-a-bye Baby

Later, sbg upah utk baby yg baik (and utk console ibu yg keletihan), Hubs took the three of us out to hunt for a carseat. Yippee!

My two favourite people, muah muah!

... and here is the one we got for her. So far we've had three rides in it, and apart from one time that she wanted to be fed, she seemed content to be in it. I feel sorry that we have to put her in a rear position, coz dia cam x leh nak tgk apa2, but it's for her own safety, so we had to. She didn't seem to mind too much, and bole dooze off to sleep on her own. Rasa sayang plak nak kejut dia bila dah sampai destinasi...

Tgk apa tu Aisyah? Dia cam nak tgk luar, x pandang pon dah Ibu dia.. Btw, itu toy fav dia la ni. Sbb very colourful and ada muzik lullaby

Asalnya x nak beli stroller sbb x sure nak bwk pergi nnt ke, nak beli baru kat sana bila dah sambung blaja nnt. Last2, cannot tahan la, coz apparently, we do got out a lot (x perasan sgt sblm ni), plus the fact that Aisyah got heavier by the day, rasanya x praktikal la nak dukung dia manjang. So kitaorg x invest in a major way pon utk stroller, just something that would do te job and if we had to leave it behind later, x rasa ralat la. As for stroller aaa, Aisyah cam x suka sgt, dia wiggle2 dlm tu but I was clueless the first time bg dia ngadap depan, facing the sea of streaming people. Dia takut kot. Next time nak pusing stroller ni bg dia ngadap muka kita, maybe she'll feel less tertekan that way. Hopefully, she'll get used to the stroller without much problem.

Vroom.. vroom... keta sorong Aisyah

Anyway, nak tanya, ada x pengalaman reader di luar sana yg mana baby anda reject perkakas2 ini? Adakah baby bole terima juga perkakas2 ni apabila dipaksa / dilatih berulang2 kali? What did you do? Just curious :)

Girls Day Out

Ready nak kuar dah ni. yeah, I look nothing like my mom. I know.

Semalam aku, Aisyah and neneknya kuar bersama2. I had a lot of errands to do, mainly related to my preparation to UK. You see people, I am doing bits by bits everyday to get this PhD prep thing completed, although currently I resemble more of a walking zombie than a PhD candidate, haha! I've heard of the horror stories on the time it takes to actually be granted a visa, and in order to do so, I need to get my ATAS certificate, a housing contract with the landlord, a medical checkup done and 1001 more things that just go whoosh and currently doing my head in. Oleh itu, walau pon aku masih lg dlm pantang (hari ke 35), aku gagahkan juga kuar, not that I minded! Bertukar angin nisgt2 aku appreciate. Since I don't drive (yet), my mom has to chaffeur me around. And since I'm Aisyah's only food source, I brought her with us, not that I ever have the heart to leave her in the first place :P

First stop, Pusat Kesihatan utk wat medical checkup. ET had told me that they would want to do a Hep B screening first, before the other part of the exams can be completed. What's worst, the result for the Hep B test will take 4 working days to get in. Memandangkan aku telah wat pon test tersebut masa tgh pregnant dulu, aku bawa slip dia bersama, dgn harapan bole skip la that part. Aku dah la x de masa ni, nak kena kuar 2,3 kali pulak, susah le. Malangnya, aku kena gak wat test tu skali lg coz result tu dah lebih 2 bulan. Hmm... kena dtg lg la ni next week.

Next stop, Fakulti, nak amik sign dekan utk pengesahan borang elaun pakaian panas. Beberapa org sempat tegur aku n terkejut sbb dah berjln rata2 dlm pantang. We all got to do what we all got to do, I said, or something aorund that line la. Then check pigeon hole and cleared out the content.

Afterwards, gi Bank plak. Punya ramai student, terpaksa la bersesak kat situ. By the time dah siap business kat bank tu, Aisyah nak nyusu. Hah, kat mana plak nak breastfeed nih? Last2 park dekat Fakulti Ekologi nyer parking yg sunyi tu dan bg la Aisyah makan. A mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do, right?

Lps dia dah kenyang, kami pon bergerak ke next destination, iaitu Jusco Taman Equine. Ye, jgn terperanjat, kami gi shopping! Asalnya nak survey2 carseat, then terbeli mcm2 benda baby yg lain. Baju berhelai2, stoking, mainan dia, etc. Baru la aku paham mengapa member2 yg ada baby sblm aku dulu, asal masuk kedai je beli baju baby. X de keja lain. naik heran aku. Skang I'm one of those people la. X bole stop rupanya. Oh the addiction!

Lama gak la kat Jusco ni. Siap feeding Aisyah 3 kali, tukar diapers 2 kali. Hehe. Mungkin sbb kemudahan tu dah ada kot. Ni aku salut Jusco, sbb wat nursing room yg sgt2 selesa dekat baby area tu. Senang aku nak shopping. Kat supermarket lain pon biasanya ada, tp kena kuar keda baby and gi cari nursing room yg usually dekat2 area toilet (eww..) Yg kat Jusco ni senang. Shopping, shopping, shopping, then dlm area yg sama masuk feeding. Then sambung lg. Dulu x pernah perasan atau hargai facilities cam nih, but now, hui, mmg cannot live without la rasanya. Tinggal lg aku lom beli stroller utk cik mek molek ni, so jenuh la berdukung, tp gilir2 ngan mak aku, so orait la. X pasti nak beli ke x stroller tu, sbb kalo jd sambung blaja nnt, x tau bole bwk ke x. Kang kalo dah excess baggage, terpaksa la plak tinggal. Plak kena beli baru kat sana. Kan rugi. As for carseat, kena beli gak kot. Sbb nak travel bila dah keja nnt, dari umah kami ke umah my mom hari2. Anyway, lom beli lg carseat tu, sbb Hubs kata nnt hari Sabtu ni dia nak ikut sama gi usha. Ingatkan nak tolong belikan dulu, coz he hardly has the time these days, tp rupe2nya dia sama excited when it comes to purchasing brg baby. Chet! X pe la, at least I got my Saturday planned already, la la la la la...

Overall, it was a very enjoyable day out, not just for me, but for Aisyah too, I would say. Dia sgt2 alert tgk sekeliling, and walaupon obvious dia ngantuk, dia lawan mata, konon x nak ketinggalan la tu. Hehe. By the time nak balik, naik je keta, pintu lom tutup lg dah Zzzzz... Letih rupenyer…

Budak keletihan

In Memoriam - Atuk Dan & Atuk Dong

Awal pg td, lebih kurg jam 2 pg, masa aku tgh sibuk melayan ragam si Aisyah yg x mo tido dlm crib die, Hubs yg tgh tido bgn n bgtau yg atuk dia yg dipanggil Atuk Dan dah meninggal dunia. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun...

Aku senyap kejap. Teringat masa aku pregnant dlm sebulan lebih itu ari, Atuk Dong, yakni wife kpd Atuk Dan telah pergi menghadap Ilahi. Sbb keadaan aku fragile masa tu, aku x balik Muar. Kini, setelah sebulan lebih aku bersalin, Atuk Dan pula menyusul. Dan sekali lg aku x dpt balik Muar kerana aku masih dalam pantang.

Ku bisikkan pada anak aku, 'Aisyah dah x de oyang lg, nak. Atuk Dan dah x de'.

Atuk Dan merupakan satu2 nya moyang yg masih ada ketika Aisyah dilahirkan, dan arwah x sempat melihat cicit nya yg terbaru ni.

Sekalung Al-Fatihah buat Atuk Dan yg dikasihi...

My 1st EBM

Like any kid and their new toy, I am still elated by my spanking new Spectra3. So yes, people, I am blogging whilst pumping at the same time since Aisyah is asleep. Gross? Maybe. Disturbing? Probably. Multi-tasking? Definitely. That's one skill all new mothers will learn to acquire over time.

Anyway, as though the grossiness factor isn't enough. I'm posting a pic of my very 1st expressed breast milk(EBM). 3 oz. Not bad for a 1st timer. So those of you who are grossed out, scroll this page no more, for here it is ...

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Of Spectra & Spectra

The Car Spectra

Up until recently, I only knew of one kind of Spectra, which is the one above. You know, the kind that transport people from one place to another.

My Spectra

Well, lo and behold, now I OWN one, though it serves a pretty much different purpose. Hopefully it can be useful from a long time, and at least get Aisyah from babyhood to toddlerhood on expressed breast milk during the day, Insya Allah...

P/s: This is the Spectra-3 model. I bought the Extravaganza package and got the dual pumping mode with the entire accessories as shown in the pics below at http://momslittleones.com/ . The store is just a stone throw away from where I live, so I bought it straight from there, tho' they do sell it online. A girlie gossip with another new young mom at HPAN when we were both rooming - in with our babies while the babies had their phototherapies done told me about the model and store. So far, it works like a charm. Pray that I am steadfast in pumping!

Aqiqah Baby Aisyah

Hari Sabtu malam Ahad lepas wat kenduri Aqiqah utk Baby Aisyah kat surau dekat umah parents aku. Majlis diadakan pada skala kecil2an aje. Aku mohon maaf pada semua pembaca blog yg x terjemput. Bkn apa, majlis ni x terncang sgt sebenarnya, coz asalnya nak wat at 7 days after birth, tp Baby kena kuning, masuk wad, then ayah dia sibuk, then Tok Ayah dia outstation, then Tok Abah and Mak Tok dia dah balik Muar, etc. Last2 nekad kena wat jugak la this week, kalo x mau x buat2 aqiqah dia kang. Hadirin terdiri drpd jemaah surau, my family and also my in-laws dari Muar sahaja. Very simple. X de marhaban, x de bunga telur dsbnya. Selawat reramai ada le. Ambil amalan yg sunat sahaja.

Alhamdulillah, walau majlis kecil, semua berjalan lancar. Semoga Allah terima la aqiqah kami ini menandakan sebesar2 kesyukuran terhadap kehadiran Baby dalam kehidupan kami. Mudah2an Baby menjadi anak yg solehah, beriman, taatkan Allah dan ibubapa, cerdik, sihat, dan comel, Amiin...

Malam tu, Baby dah di tahnik kan dan dah cukur jambul sket. Tinggal tunggu Ayah dia cari masa utk cukur licin kepala dia. Malam esok kot dia nak wat. In the meantime, nak abadikan gmbr Baby semasa rambut masih ada ni. Gaun putih yg Baby pakai ni adalah gaun pertama milik beliau, yg dijahit oleh nenek sedaranya.

Update Aisyah's Visit to Paediatrician

Hari ni gi bawak Aisyah utk 1 month checkup kat Klinik Pakar Kanak2 An-Nur. Dia dah dijadualkan utk kena injek 2nd Dose of Hep B vaccination. Memandangkan smlm dia meragam slps lama giler menunggu di klinik, maka aku nekad, ari ini mesti sampai awal. X mo no besar dah.

Klinik buka pkl 4.30 ptg, tp aku pkl 3.00 dah siap2. I've learnt my lesson weh... Ada baby, mmg 2,3 kali ganda akan lambat, dah la aku bkn bangsa on time slalunya. Memula siapkan beg dia, bawak semua benda extra, extra towel, extra diapers, extra wipes, extra persalinan. Then aku siapkan diri aku, then kejut Baby, tukar baju dia, then breastfeed dia kejap. Kendian load brg ke dlm keta. Ada bermcm2 jenis beg, beg tgn aku, beg baby, beg tgn mak aku, beg telekung mak aku, and then load payung. Then we were good to go.

Sampai2 pkl 4.12 ptg. Hah. Klinik x bukak pon lg. Aku rasa aku 1st, tp ada makcik potong aku. Ntah, malas plak aku nak tegur sbb ntah2 dia sampai dulu sblm aku tp dia emrendek tmpt lain ke mana tahu. In the end mmg ada hikmahnya aku x jln 1st, sbb masuk2 klinik Baby nak nyusu lg. So nombor 2 tu dah orait la tuh.

Anyway, dlm pd menunggu tercangak2 kat luar sblm klinik bukak tu, aku terserempak ngan Hamka n wife dia Fatihah. Rupe2 nya diorg expecting, dlm 4 months gitu. Appointment kat klinik sebelah. Lps chit chat sket2 n memperkenalkan Aisyah Nurzahirah, kitaorg pon part ways. Then skjp tu terserempak ngan Maslina adik nya si Sheera ngan hubby dia plak, yg juga tgh expecting n tggu giliran kat klinik sebelah. Hoho... ramai ye org ke HPAN ni. Laku gitu hospital nih... Seronot la plak jumpa org2 yg kita kenal nih tanpa disangka2, n bertambah seronot bile dpt tahu diorg ada bun in the oven :)

Masa jupe Dr, dia bgtau, Baby nyer bilirubin level dah ok drpd last blood test. Alhamdulillah... Then dia tanya Baby ada problem x? Aku ckp la Baby ada picked up habit baru iaitu nangis mlm2, dia ngantuk, bg susu, then dia tido, tp cam x lena, then terbangun2. Repeat la pattern tu sampai subuh. Dr senyum je. Dia kata Baby colic kot. So dia subscribe ubat angin/kembung utk Baby.

Dr timbang Baby, dah 4.7 kg. Subhanallah! Anak aku... semangat yer... Dlm sebulan dah nyaris naik sekilo. Power to the breast milk! Ekekeke.... Tinggi plak, dari 53 cm jadi 57 cm. Ukurlilit kepala, dari 36 cm jd 38 cm. All looks good, Alhamdulillah.

Then tiba la part yg x best sket, iaitu Baby kena injek. Aku x tgk. X sampai ati. Rupe2 nya dia injek kat peha ek (mak aku bgtau, aku kan x tgk). Ingatkan kat bahu mcm BCG dia ari tuh. Mak aku plak ingatkan kat bontot. So dua2 salah. So far Baby looks fine, I hope she stays that way la. Dr kata jarang demam kalo Hep B nyer shot.

Then Dr ajar cara2 nak save n introduced expressed breast milk kat baby. Ooo.. aku dah patut pumping dari skang wat stok rupenyer. Sbb Dr kata lama proses nak train Baby tu. Bkn bole bg dia botol cold turkey je. Baru aku tau yg kita kna introduce sket2, contohnya sekali sehari je botol for 3 days, then up kan 2 kali feeding sehari for another 3 days, then 3 kali sehari for the next 3 days, dan seterusnya. Nasib Dr bgtau, kalo x dah tentu suffer si Aisyah. Silap gaya, mau dia lose weight x nak minum susu langsung, merajuk...

Ok ni aku sertakan gmbr budak kena injek tgh tido lps balik klinik. Cian, anak Ibu...

Update Check Up Ibu

Smlm aku gi check up kat Klinik Pakar Wanita An-Nur sbb dah genap sebulan lps c-sec hari tu. Dr nak tgk kesan jahitan and camne dia sembuh lps sebulan. Klinik start pukul 9 a.m. Aku bersiap (mandi, breakfast, siapkan Aisyah, etc..) pkl 7.30 a.m. lagi tp sbb aku x biasa siapkan Baby utk kuar at a certain time, and for some stupid reason I forgot yg Baby memang nak feeding pkl 8.30, maka aku sampai klinik pkl 9.25 a.m. Huh.. apa lg, dpt nombor mega besar punyer... no. 17.... Klinik plak mmg giler pack ngan ibu2 mengandung. Aku dan sorg lg je pompuan tu yg bwk baby bersama dlm klinik. Ni kira check up post natal la nih.

Hari ni aku pakai baju kurung dulu2. It surprised me that it still fit. Sempat lg aku bermekap ala lebih kurg. Tp x sempat cun utk tempoh masa yg lama, sbb belom apa2 baju gerenti kedut kes pangku Baby dalam keta, and x lama kemudian baju mmg bau susu badan coz termeleleh2 time Baby minta breastfeed. Iyer... lama giler itu waiting period, Baby tido, bgn, breastfed once, tukar pampers, and tido again baru dpt masuk. Sabar je la...

Anyway, spt biasa, cek BP and weight. BP normal, Alhamdulillah, 112/82. Then naik atas scale. Masa ni aku budget berat mungkin 70 kilo kot, last sblm bersalin itu ari 76.6 kg. Tup2 bila aku naik scale tu, bacaan berat aku ialah... jeng jeng jeng, 63.5 kg. Hah, mcm x caya! Sungguh pun ramai org yg akan pengsan kalo dpt tahu berat mereka adalah 60 kilo lebih, tp bg aku, ini adalah cukup bagus memandangkan berat aku pre-pregnancy pon adalah 63 kg. In short, all 13 kg aku gained from this pregnancy is lost! Alhamdulillah... kudos to breastfeeding n berjaga mlm jugak kot...

Bila masuk jupe Dr plak, dia cek luka n bgtau semua OK. Dia scrubbed sket tempat luka tu, bg bersih. Then dia scanned tgk rahim. Still besar sket, belom kecut abis la. Patut la from time to time aku ada rasa cramp cam period. I thought I would be super upset tgk rahim yg kosong, cz I seriously enjoyed being pregnant. Tp rasa neutral aje. Cuma cam x caya yg Baby dulu resided kat sini. Siap ckp lg kat Aisyah, ingat x tempat ni dulu? Buat lawak la plak... But overall Dr pon impressed sbb extra weight dah hilang . I must have been super huge la dulu. Apa2 pon, bersyukur sgt everything is all good.

So here's a little pic of me for those yg rendu melihat I pakai baju kurung. Dah 7 bulan lebih dah asyik pakai baju gedobos je ..Kekekekekeh... I may not look my best for I have bags under my eyes from the lack of sleep, I may stink of sour breastmilk 24/7 and I can only squeeze two 5 minutes quickie showers a day, but I'm still over the moon for the fact that I've lost all the baby weight. Ngehehhehe...

Baby's 1st Month

Dah sebulan rupanya anak Ibu ni duduk bersama kami. Tiap2 hari pon kami bersyukur dan ceria meniti hari bersama mu, Alhamdulillah...

My Post C-Sec Experience

I’ve told my birth story, but what I equally want to remember is what happened in the days that followed until we got discharged from the hospital. I need to write it down, coz to me, it was a first ever experience, a lot of it were sweet and memorable, some were down right scary, and a few were just so painful physically.
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17 Jun 2006
Aku baru lps dibawa naik dari bilik OT ke bilik wad aku. Alhamdulillah semuanya dah selesai. Buat masa ni semua benda masih lg dibuat oleh nurse utk aku sbb kesan ubat bius tu masih kuat and aku x larat nak gerakkan kaki sendiri, termasuk la mengangkat aku dari katil sorong ke katil bilik. Nak buang air kecik pon aku x yah buat sendiri, dah mmg dipasang tiub kat salur kencing dah. Kat tgn aku drip IV masih dipasang, lps abis sebotol dimasukkan lg sebotol. Aku diberitahu x leh mkn lg sampai la dah buang angin (kentut). Quite possibly esok la baru kentut, kata Dr. Kalo nak minum sket2 bole, tp mlm karang je baru minum sbb takut termuntah, kesan ubat bius. Dr pesan lg, kejap2 lg bila slowly rasa kat kaki tu dah dtg balik, kena gerakkan kaki supaya pengaliran darah berjalan lancar. Dr was quite amazed that I still looked pink and healthy despite losing blood masa nak bersalin td. Alhamdulillah, syukur aku x perlukan blood transfusion.

Wokeh. Setelah selesai semua, nurse bawakan Baby kpd aku. Ni la first time aku pangku dia. Ini moment yg describe sebelum ni yg paling aku x leh lupa… sbb first time jumpa n pegang Baby face to face. My family semua ambil peluang ni utk admire the new member of the family. Baby dah siap dibersihkan, tp aku hanya mampu pegang aje la seminit dua sbb aku x berdaya nak buat benda2 lain. Nak nyusu pon susu belom ada lg. So after awhile, I have to be satisfied with just holding Baby utk sekejap cuma pada masa tu. Kemudian Baby disorong balik ke nursery. Tak lama my parents plak minta diri, suh aku berehat. Nanti mlm diorg dtg lg.

So tinggal la aku n Hubs kat bilik. Aku pada masa ni x rasa sakit langsung dekat tempat bedah tu. X plak aku rasa lemah ke letih ke, walhal aku hilang significant amount of blood jugak. Cuma masalahnya aku x leh bergerak sesuka ati la, static je dari pinggang ke bwh. But my hands are free, so aku pon amik peluang ni utk meng-SMS kan pada member2 yg ada tentang kelahiran Baby. Hubs pon sama, dia SMS kan kengkawan dia. At the same time I asked him to ON kan YM, and put the status ‘Alhamdulillah,I am now a Mom’ up. So the next hour we spent SMSing, replying phone calls and also YM messages.

Nurse2 yg dtg check BP slps tu pon pelik ngape la aku cam org x kena operate je ni. Lincah membalas SMS, berborak2 ngan Hubs dan siap dictate kan kat Hubs apa yg perlu ditulis kat YM bila ada mesej balik. X de gaya org perlu rehat langsung. Kih kih kih… truth of the matter was, I felt on top of the world. Of course, this had a lot to do with the drugs in my system sampai x rasa pon sakit sket pon, but the adrenaline and excitement of becoming of Mom pon salah satu penyebabnya juga.

Slowly, I regained the movements of my lower limbs. Bole dah gerak2 kan kaki sket, tinggal lom bole pusingkan badan je. Dalam ramai2 yg aku SMS tu, aku terkenangkan K Ti yg due date dia lebih kurg aku. Memandangkan aku bersalin awal, aku agak dia lom bersalin lg kot, so aku SMS la bgtau dia aku baru je lps bersalin. Imagine my surprise bila dia balas balik, ‘K Ti kat wad bersalin HUSM ni, nak bersalin dah. Dr kata pkl 6 ptg ni beranak la’. Oh dear God, K Ti tgh laboring away! Is it possible anak2 kitaorg share birth date sama? How exciting! I glanced at the clock, 5 p.m. Oh, dah x lama dah. I silently sent a prayer to K Ti supaya dipermudahkan segalanya…

K Ti bersalin jam 6.51 p.m. Unlike me, K Ti bersalin normal and dapat Baby Boy. Wah… seronotnye… sungguh aku x sangka room mate aku masa degree kat Kolej 14 dulu, yg sama2 wat lawak x matured ngan aku, yg susah senang bergelak ketawa bersama dulu2, telah melahirkan anak pada hari yg sama ngan aku. X pernah plak terlintas di fikiran aku semasa sebilik dulu bahawasanya yg kami akan sama2 melalui saat ini in the future. Apa pon, Alhmdulillah….

Sebelah malamnya, Mas and Hubby dia dtg melawat. Diaorg la tetamu yg first skali visit. Aku mmg appreciate sgt2, dah la bg sumbangan yg besar plak tu. Huhu… terharu ada member yg baik mcm nih.

So far, I had no complaint. Adik ipar aku dtg melawat n tido skali ngan aku aku n Hubs coz it’s a private room. Spjg mlm tu aku haus, and adik ipar aku la suapkan air kosong sket2 kat aku. Susah gak nak minum dalam keadaan tido ni. Mencabar, sbb kalo salah buat, mau aku tersedak, and by then I’ve noticed the tight feeling in my stomach tempat bedah tu. Kalo batuk, tersedak, bersin atau pon ketawa, nahas la… sakit yg amat la kat perut tu… Memandangkan aku hanya bole tido menelentang aje, x bole mengiring2, aku start rasa rimas and panas. Macam nak naik ruam kat belakang aku pon ye jugak, iye la, dah x bergerak2. Plak dibaginya aku selimut tebal, so aku mintak aircon dipasang kuat, tp kena compromise gak sbb Hubs and adik ipar kesejukan… Brrr… kesian diorg….

18 Jun 2006
Dr dtg check pg tu. Aku report la yg aku dah kentut, so Dr bg green light utk mkn. Yippee… Aku start slow2 ngan minum air Milo aje dulu. Dr kata ptg krg dia dtg bukak drip ngan catheter bawah. And if aku sakit sgt kat tempat operation tu, bgtau, nnt dia cucuk ubat tahan sakit and kasi ubat makan. Oraits.. Nurse plak dtg lap2 kan badan aku and salin baju and pad. Masa ni wat x kisah je aurat yg terbuka, sbb x leh nak wat apa, mmg glad pon dpt lap sket2, sbb rimas.

Dlm pkl 11 pg gitu member2 tutor ada dtg dan tanya khabar (ET, Izuan, Azura, K Mas & K Ida). Dlm tghari sket, batch kedua plak dtg, K Patty, K LiliN, K LillyS, K Bie & KJ aku dtg. Turut serta adalah Farid n Azri. Aku x sangka ada lelaki yg ikut skali, so dlm kelam kabut tu aku capai je la tuala tutup kepala. Huduh sungguh rupa aku masa tu :P

As promised, ptgnya tu nurse dtg bukak drip n catheter. Panjang gak rupanya benda alah tiub tu dimasukkan ke dalam… hiii… takut aku tgk. So as of now, nurse suruh aku kencing kat toilet la, I’m on my own. Aku juga dinasihatkan start bgn dari katil n bergerak2 secepat mungkin, lg cpt bergerak atau berjalan, lagi cpt recovery.

First attempt bgn dari katil, mmg SAKIIIIIT abis. Nak bgn dari posisi baring ke posisi duduk pon dah mkn masa berapa lama. Itu pon dgn bantuan Hubs. Kalo x de dia, x tahu ler… Nak turun dari katil lg satu hal. Tinggi la plak katil spital ni. Aku agak ada la dlm 15 min berusaha dari baring ke berdiri. Then berjengkit2 slow ke bilik air. Masa kat bilik air tu rasa cam nak gelap mata kejap. Dia punya sore dgn perut tu, pergh… x pernah rasa la.. Alhamdulillah bole qadha hajat dgn OK aje. Masa ni aku terpikir K Ti yg bersalin normal, how is she doing? Does she have trouble peeing bcoz of her stitches kat you-know-where?

Selesai episod tu aku naik balik atas katil, sampai la nak gi toilet lg malam nye tuh. Seperti td, dgn bantuan Hubs aku slowly and painfully turun katil, nak ke toilet. Tiba2 klepek! Kuar sesuatu dari celah2 kaki aku. Rupa dia seakan2 limpa sebesar telapak tgn aku ada. Aku dah cuak dah, sbb darah merah pon ada gak. So cpt2 masuk toilet n Hubs panggilkan nurse. Tiba2, klepek! Seketul lg kuar dlm bilik air. Lg besar dari yg kat luar td. Apa benda nih?

Nurse naik heran, terus panggil Dr. Dr dtg, ckp tu darah beku yg biasa kalo org lps kena operate. Fuh, nasib baik aku kat spital, kalo kat umah, dah tentu panik banget. And nasib jugak la dok kat spital, ada la org lain yg cucikan. Ye la, x kan aku plak nak amik mop n terbongkok2 mengelap, ye dok?

Sekejap tu Yzma & Hubby dia dtg. Nasib baik dah siap cuci semua. Hubs ajak laki dia gi mkn, so aku n Yzma duduk2 la nyembang kat atas. Lps diorg balik, parents aku lak sampai. Mlm tu, skali lg aku tido mengeras telentang, x pusing2. Walaupon dah bole bgn dari katil, tp mesti dgn bantuan org and sakit die still… x bole citer… Tuhan aje la yg tahu…

19 Jun 2006
Dr dtg pg ni bukak aku nyer balutan kat tempat operate. Dia cek2, kata everything looks fine. Dia pon sapu cream antibacterial, and spray kalis air dekat luka tu. Dia bgtau yg luka luaran can take up to 2 weeks to get better, yg belah dlm 2 months. So kena jg diri baik2, and no berbengkung for awhile, though she encouraged walking and moving around for speedy recovery. Dr juga ckp ptg ni org akan insertkan enema kat aku, sbb aku lom buang air besar lg. Oh no!

Slps itu, aku decide ari ni aku nak mandi. So dgn bantuan Hubs lg, I got off the bed and cuba utk mandi. This was the first time I had a good look at my (naked) self post operation. And what I saw nearly made me cry. Hudusnya diri ini! Perut aku sgt2 flabby, mcm org mengandung 3 bulan. Dah la goyang2 mcm jelly, huhu! (FYI, flabby jelly tu hilang after a week. Water retention je kot).

But the real part yg made me cry was bila kena air dekat luka tu. Oh My God! I swear, masa tu pikir, I don’t ever want to go through this again! But biasa la, skang dah lupa dah sakitnya tu… Hehe…

Lps mandi, nurse dtg cek BP and tanya sama ada aku nak ke x ubat tahan sakit. Aku refused. Nurse tu mcm pelik ngan jawapan aku, sbb dia kata aku la org 1st yg tolak offer painkiller. Aku x pasti la sbb apa aku berkeras x nak amik painkiller, mungkin sbb aku x dpt rasa sakit kontraksi to the max, aku rasa aku deserve rasa sakit post op to make up for it. Twisted? Maybe. But then again, aku rasa sakit dia still bearable, tu y aku x mintak tuh. Oh well...

Hubs then balik umah utk basuh baju. So tinggal la aku sorg kat bilik. Kejap tu nurse dtg bawak Baby. This was the first time aku brestfed kan Baby. Mula2 tu susah gak, then Baby got hold of it, and the nurse left the room. Just me & Baby. Bonding through breastfeeding … Bestnyer…

Waktu lunch tu ada org ketuk pintu bilik. Ingatkan nurse nak administer enema la ni. Cuak dah aku. Rupa2nyer member2 opis Hubs dtg (Rozi, Wani, Hasnah, K Liza). Sungguh aku x sangka diorg melawat aku jauh2. Rozi ni aku dah pernah mentioned dlm previous post dulu, yg dia bersalin c-sec gak at 31 weeks sbb placenta previa. So kitaorg compare2 la citer. Masa dia lps bersalin kat Hosp Serdang, sakit lps c-sec tu sama la cam aku, but x de sapa bole tolong, not even husband dia pon dibenarkan masuk. Nurse siap paksa2 lg suh bgn, tend the baby by herself. Rozi ckp, dia siap guna trick suh husband dia yg menunggu kat lobi bawah utk pura2 bawakan brg2 utk dia kat wad tiap2 kali dia nak bgn gi toilet, sbb sakit x leh bgn sendiri. After a while, pengawal keselamatan dpt hidu kegiatan dia, maka husband dia x dibenarkan masuk, hanya brg tu sahaja dibawa oleh guard tersebut kpd Rozi.

Aku rasa kesian sgt dgr citer die. Sbb aku skang tahu sakit dia camne, aku rasa kalo sengsorg, x tahu la aku dpt bgn ke x ke toilet tu mengurus diri, apa tah lg mengurus baby. Baru la aku paham kenapa ada satu budak yg satu wad ngan aku tu, masa aku kena tahan kat Hosp Serdang dulu pasal bleeding tu, dia wat derkkk je masa baby dia nangis. Siap melalak2 for like, half an hour. Org lain cpt2 je turun katil n pujuk baby masing2, tp dia leh wat dunno. Now I know, budak tu kena c-sec, org lain bersalin normal. No wonder la…

Ptg tu nurse pon dtg and insertkan enema seperti yg dijanjikan. Nasib x sakit. Aku minta dia tolong bgn kan aku, takut nnt ubat dah berkesan, aku x dpt bgn lg, kang terbarai plak atas katil, dah la Hubs x de. Alhamdulillah, mujarab stool softener dia, 2 minit aje mmg dah rasa. Slps another 5 mins, dah lega. Bila aku citer kat Hubs psl ni, dia bole gelak. Dia kata, kesian yek, org pompuan bersalin, kena assault depan belakang. Chet!

Ptg tu skali lg Dr masuk cek luka. Dia ckp aku dah ok, and I am to see her again 1 month after this utk cek luka tu lg. Kira aku dah graduate la dgn Dr Fatimah ni. Aku salam dia, ckp thank you byk2. Dia pon ckp tahniah n tumpang happy aku dah dapat baby. Ye la, aku ngan dia history dah lama, sejak 1st pregnancy yg aku miscarried itu ari lg. Dia bgtau lg, aku dah bole discaj ptg ni sebenarnya, tp Baby kena hold dulu sbb tgh kena phototherapy utk jaundice. Tp aku bole stay satu mlm lg, tp standard la, kena bayar. Sbb aku x sampai ati nak walk out of the hosp without Baby, aku n Hubs decided that it wouldn’t hurt to stay for one more night.

20 Jun 2008
Dlm pkl 11 pg cam tuh nurse ckp Baby dah bole balik. Aku mmg x sabar2, tp billing took so freaking long, tau2 dah waktu semayang Jumaat. X pe la. Tunggu after Jumaat. So at 4 p.m. that day, Hubs, Baby and I (and also Mak aku) walked out of HPAN as a new family unit). Syukur, Alhamdulillah…

Nak balik umah, yeye...

How Did Baby Get Out Here?

My mother teaches a group of kids how to recite the Holy Quran in the evenings. When the kids come over, they occupy the front living area, and Baby and I would just lounge around the family living area, not paying too much attention to what goes on out front.

But there is a particularly cheeky four year old little girl who just couldn't seem to sit still. She would stroll around to where we are sitting, sometimes walking up into the kitchen. I never really minded her, as long as she was quite and wasn't touching anything breakable.

Then one evening, she came up to me and Baby, and asked, 'Baby Aisyah datang dari mana?'

'Dari dalam perut la', I answered, rubbing my belly.

'Ingat lagi tak perut akak besar dulu?', I asked her back. She nodded. Clearly she remembered.

I thought that was the end of it but she proceeded with the million dollar question.

'Macam mana baby keluar dari perut?'

I was startled for a few seconds, as I was trying to decide whether or not to tell her about the normal vaginal delivery, until I remembered, 'Hey, I had a C-section'.

So I told her that Baby Aisyah came out of me through an incision made on my belly. She seemed satisfied with my answer and walked back to the front where the rest of the kids where waiting their turn to mengaji.

Phew, that was a close one. Although I might have left an impression on her that ALL babies are born that way, I'll have to leave the more detailed explanation of the normal vaginal delivery to her parents. For the time being, let's just say I'm glad that I discovered that having a C-section finally does have its advantages. At least, I would forever be spared of answering 'the question' without lying to the kids. Ngehehehe...

Noise Pollution

With the addition of Baby to our family, I began to notice things that I had once was oblivious to before.

Namely the noise that otherwise went unnoticed.

Oh Dear God, how these noise irked me to no end. Mainly because they startle Aisyah when she is napping, causing her to wake up and cry, much to my annoyance because a lot of the time it takes her a good 20 minute of coaxing and carrying her in my two arms all around the house, all the while singing lullabies and zikir to get her into the napping stage in the first place.

Here is a list of the noise that I am now pissed to hear:

The doorbell

Please, if you must press the bell, just press it ONCE, and no need to bang on the door afterwards. It takes me longer to open the door in my 'berpantang' period than before. By the way, I will get the door much faster if I don't have to sooth Baby first, who'd just woken up by your compulsive act of ringing the door bell again and again.

The phone

Particularly if it's coming from a telemarketer. Buzz off.

The person who sneezes

Just try to keep it down. For my sake and sanity, pretty please?

The kids next door

Must you kids yell at the sight of every G*d damned cat/dog/car/bus/apek that passes in front of your house in the evening?

The car door, when Baby and I are in the car, heading for the Dr's

I never noticed car door slams were so loud before. May be next time we should attempt getting in through the window :P

The ones listed here are all top-of-the-list of sounds that annoy me. Funny I never noticed them before. Hopefully Baby'll get used to the sound one day, and will have no problem sleeping through the noise. It's not like we can move to a secluded spot on a private island somewhere .. heh

Pink'd

Semangat tu, terus basuh and jemur serta merta kihkihkih...

Hmmm... Looks like someone got too carried away buying pink baby items at the Jusco Taman Equine Member's Day Sale...

Baby, you got pink'd! Ngehehehe...

P/S: Baby's Nenek did all the shopping. Aku masih dlm pantang :P

Aisyah's Daily Schedule

This is Baby when she is fast asleep. Yes, my honeybunch prefers to sleep on her tummy like that.

Sleeping soundly like a Baby...

When she's done sleeping, she'll wake up and asks to be fed Ibu's yummy-licious booby juice. Usually, after she's done, she'll spend sometime doing her 'business'.

The 'Face'

Baby will then have her diaper cleaned, and also her Nenek will give her a bath, which she seems to enjoy very much, on a good day. On a bad day, she'll scream like there's no tomorrow.

If Baby's hungry, she'll want to be fed again. Otherwise, Ibu and Baby then spend their time 'lepak'ing together. Sometimes they'll sorta watch TV together, but mostly, Baby will sitin Ibu's arms, staring, sometimes smiling and if Ibu is really lucky, she gets to hear Baby blabbers on in her Baby language. In return, Ibu makes silly faces and talks in funny voices to Baby nonstop ...

Sayang Ibu ni macam paham je apa yg ditayangkan kat TV tu..

After another quick round of feeding, Baby then usually dozes off again to slumberland.

Tido gaya kura2. Bontot meninggi ke langit

The cycle is repeated throughout the day and night, except for the bathing part, which are only given once in the morning and once in the evening. The schedule is all good, generally, except for when Baby loses the sense of time and decides to do the 'lepak'ing part at 2.30 in the morning. And you can tell she really likes 'lepak'ing with Ibu, you see, coz at a time she can be up for two hours straight.

It's a miracle how Ibu still finds the time (and strength) to blog at all!

Now I know that Mothers don't only have arms of steel and boobs flowing of liquid white gold goodness, but also the highest multi-tasking skills just to survive through the day.

Salute to all the (super)moms out there who do it day in, day out!

To Know Is To Love

My Dearest Baby Aisyah,

It' has been less than 3 weeks that you are here with me but already I cannot imagine what life is without you. I can see what a smart baby you are. In this short span of time, you have already mastered several skills such as lifting up your head, kicking real hard (and at times scaring the shit out of your Ibu when you kicked her in the tummy, for the fear that her stitches will open up), gurgling, smiling, cooing and even swimming, or what appeared to Ibu as swimming in your cot during tummy time. You nurse like a champ, you even did it well before the lactationist came to teach you how to.Even what's left of your umbilical cord dried up and detached super fast, at age 6 days of life, much to the amzement of everyone.

I see that you've learned to pick up several moves already; like how you give out your most angelic look, with that sweet sugary smile on your lips that'll for sure make Ayah's heart melt without fail everytime, that he'll pick you up and let you stay in his arms all night long if you wanted too. And you are so smart to have made the connection that the louder you wail, the faster Dear Ibu will terkocoh2 come to your side and tend to you. Impressive, my Aisyah...

Dear Baby,

Within these 3 weeks, I, too, have gotten to know you a lot. I've begun to understand the cues on why you are crying and what upsets you.

I have begun to shed some light on your feeding and sleeping schedule.

I notice that you can't stand a wet diaper for longer than a few minutes at a time.

I know that you sleep better (and longer) on your tummy.

I know how much you love it when Ayah lets you snuggle close on his chest at night (awhhh... so sweeet!)

I know how you loath being swaddled all day long and prefer to bare it all out.

And last but not least,
I know (and love!) that signature face that you make when you are taking a dump. Classic!

I am so proud of myself for noticing the 'face' single-handedly. I am proud that you, too, have made tremendous progress already. Ah well, the truth is, I am so proud to have you as my daughter and I know that I am just so, so blessed to have the opportunity to be your mother. Period.

Sugar Buns, I Love You with all my heart !

Journey With Baby

Kalo dulu title blog ni ialah Journey to Baby, rasanya dgn kehadiran si Aisyah Nurzahirah ni, the journey has reached its destination la. But since I am kinda fond of writing this blog, (why else would anyone yg tgh berpantang menghadap computer at the wee hours of morning, typing away when it would be so much better to just catch up on some sleep masa Baby tido), I guess kena tukar n upgrade sket la certain2 part.

If you've noticed the ticker kat atas and also a few pics kat tepi dah edit. And my dear Bro suggested, why not change this blog title to 'Journey With Baby'?

And I LOVE it.

So from now on, that's exactly what this blog will be about - Journey With Baby Aisyah. Hope this journey will be as exciting as, if not more exciting than before, Insya Allah...

Journey With Me!

Jaundice Update

Hari Jumaat itu hari gi follow-up Baby nyer jaundice ngan klinik paed dia. Bab menunggu2 kat klinik ni mmg leceh,and bertambah la kelecehan tu bila ada si kecik. Kena bawak beg besar isi mcm2; pampers, kain lap, ass wipe, baju sepersalinan, rekod kesihatan Baby, etc. Ooo.. gini rupenyer kalo dah ada baby eh. Tas tangan yg kecil molek tu? Forgeddit la...

Nasib baik Baby mmg fully breastfed, kalo x kena bwk additional item la, tin susu dia, thermos, botol, dsbnya. Cuma x tahan breastfed babies ni, anytime dia bole mintak nenen, so kena berkira2 dulu la kat mana bole nyusukan. Kalo setakat gi paed klinik tu, x heran la, sbb ada bilik nyusu. Cuma kena pakai baju yg breastfeeding-friendly, i.e. butang di depan. Ini bukan la satu rungutan, tp lebih kpd observation. Sesungguhnya baru aku tahu how things are once you are a mother. Bkn bole melenggang kangkung je kuar pintu umah sesuka ati spt waktu dolu2 :D

Setelah agak berjanggut menunggu dan udah abis skali round feeding, nama Aisyah pon dipanggil. Aku part cucuk tumit Baby utk amik darah ni dah jadi agak lali dah. Awal2 dulu mmg sedih sgt siap bergenang air mata tgk Baby kena amik blood utk di test. Lps Baby masuk wad itu ari, yg mana 2 kali sehari amik darah, aku dah jd sedikit tabah hehehe... Anyway, lps tu kena tggu 1/2 jam utk collect result. Tunggu punya tunggu (lg skali feeding daaa...) Dr panggil masuk. Ingatkan nak discuss result, rupenya nak bgtau, machine yg spin darah tu ada problemo, so kena amik darah skali lg. Haiyoo... agak panas aku masa ni, dah la tunggu lama, dgn nak Maghribnya dah, plak tu sian anak aku kena cucuk skali lg x pasal2. Skali lg la si Aisyah ni meraung2. Sian anak Ibu ni...

Berkat kesabaran kami agaknya, Alhamdulillah, result darah Baby OK. 11.1 mg/dL. Masih ada kuning sket, tp di bawah paras yg kena warded la. Aku harap bilirubin dia beransur turun. Mmg Baby kena breast milk jaundice la ni, sbb aku ngan dia lain blood group. Dr kata kalo keep on breastfeeding, nanti dia akan hilang, but slowly. Sometimes it can take up to a month. So kena persevere je la. Kalo bg formula dia cpt sket baik, but kalo dihitung pro and cons dia di kemudian hari, I'm still sticking to breastmilk lah. Supply Alhamdulillah ada, and demand pon byk, so teruskan je la.

Yg x best nya, Dr nak suh dtg Ahad ni utk amik urine sample Baby plak. On a Sunday morning? Adus, malas sungguh nak kuar lg dlm pantang mcm ni. Ntah camne la dia nak amik air kencing tu, jgn sampai guna catheter cucuk dalam anu Baby dah. Kalo mcm tu mau nangis aku. Cukup la ibu dia aje yg kena masa nak operate itu hari... huhu...

Also Dr nak wat repeat test lg utk jaundice ni. Aku berdoa sgt biar la jaundice ni jd history dah... Jgn la naik balik bilirubin level Baby tu.. Moga2 dah x de apa2 yg membahayakan kesihatan Baby dah lps ni. Sbg ibu, mcm2 yg dipikirkan, n kalo layan sgt pikiran2 tu, x tido jadik nye...

Ok la.. kengkawan tolong doakan everything goes fine eh tomorrow morning. Going to bed now, to catch up on my beauty sleep.. ngehehee....

Baby's Birth Story

Okay, I'm gonna type this real fast coz I have really little time to squeeze in before Baby wakes up. I'm determined to have this typed, else I will never, ever get this written down at all, even if this was the most liberating experiences of my life.

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Isnin, 16 Jun 2008
6.00 pagi
Dah tahu dah pg ni kena induce. Smlman x dpt tido nyenyak. Berdebaaaaarrr ... manjang. Dalam keadaan ni, aku rasa Dalam hati ada gak berdoa biar la air ketuban aku pecah naturally, supaya x yah induce, kurang sket la kesakitan tu. Tapi apa kan daya, sudah tertakdir kot aku kena gak induce. Alaa... org lain pon ramai je yg kena induce, survived je pon kan... so tawakkal je lah.

Spjg jln ke hosp pg tu Hubs buat lawak konon2 nak menceriakan aku, tp org tgh cuak, mcm2 aku pikirkan sampaikan masam monyok je muka aku bo layan kan dia. Dia excited la, org dah nak jd ayah la katakan. Lepas makan nasi lemak kat kedai sebelah hosp tu, kitaorg pon checked in. Kena la deposit RM1000 utk bilik yg kitaorg pilih tu.

Dah settle bayaran kat kaunter bwh, terus kitaorg dibawa naik ke Labour Room. Aku disuruh buang air kecil n bersiap2, sat lg Dr akan naik n masukkan ubat induce tu. Sblm tu, skali lg diaorg buat CTG tu. Apparently, contraction masih next to zero, but Baby was doing fine otherwise.

9.00 pagi
Dr dtg checked bukaan. Believe it or not, masih lg zero cm. Adus.. Dr dah pesan awal2 la, kalo 0 cm ni, mmg amik masa lama sket la, but bergantung pada org. Paling cpt, in 6 hours, paling lmbt, 24 hours. Okeh. So Dr pon insertkan la ubat induce yg sebesar panadol tu (kata Hubs). Nama dia Prostaglandin rasanya. Part ni sungguh x best .. eiii... Dah la sakit sket2, plak kena duduk terbaring sejam kalo x ubat tu bole kuar semula, kang kena insert lg skali.

So lepaks la kami dalam bilik tu. Utk menghabiskan masa, kami amik2 gmbr la, wat lawak ntah apa2. Aku berlakon je ceria, sebenarnya berdebar tahap leh pengsan dah masa ni. Argghhh!!!

Cukup sejam tu nurse pon bawak la kitaorg masuk ke Bilik Wad untuk menunggu sakit contraction tu. Malangnya, sampai ke petang aku x rasa apa2 kontraksi pon. Tiada aktiviti apa pon kat bawah tu. Tiap2 4 jam skali nurse dtg amik BP and check CTG. Buat masa ni, semua Alhamdulillah OK lg.

5.30 ptg
Ptg tu Dr dtg check aku. Dia pon agak terperanjat sbb aku masih bole gelak2 x de rupa sakit nak beranak. Kata dia, selalunya dalam masa sejam org lain dah berguling2 dah menahan sakit. X pe la, kata dia lagi, tunggu 24 hours. Kalo x de apa2 jugak, esok lps Subuh dia akan add another sebijik ubat induce tu. Oh no!

Aku masa ni x tau nak rasa lega sbb x sakit lg atau risau sbb mcm slow je progress. Aku dah kata, x best sungguh ada medical intervention mcm ni, sbb body x ready kan, lg nak paksa2. Sah2 la nnt ada domino effect ni, one intervention will no doubt lead to another.

Aku teringat citer Nor Aini yg kata dia siap masuk 3 biji lagi ubat induce tp x apa2. Last2 kena c-sec gak sbb baby dia dah stressed. Kitaorg ni kira geng kebal la kot, dah kena induce pon x jalan ngehehehe…

9.00 malam
Malam nye tu Sake, Ummu n Baby Hassan dtg melawat aku kat hospital. Malu gak aku, dah la mak ayah aku pon ada kat situ skali. Bkn apa, rasa menyusahkan org je, sbb aku x sakit lg, tp org dah concern dtg nak tgk. Dipendekkan cerita, nothing eventful happened that night n aku tido lena sampai pg.

Selasa, 17 Jun 2008
6.30 pagi
As promised, lepas Subuh nurse dtg masukkan ubat induce skali lg. This time it was far better than yesterday, less painful. Mungkin sbb aku dah biasa and x melawan ubat tu masuk kot. Within minutes, aku start rasa sakit ala2 mild senggugut. Wah, ni sudah bagus, aku ckp kat Hubs. So aku pon cepat2 mkn breakfast and then naik katil tido. Ye la, aku dgr citer org, sat lg nak pakai byk energy nak push, so sblm aku sakit sampai x leh tido, baik aku simpan energy tu skang.

12.30 tghari
Aku terbangun dari tido. Aiks, mana peginya kontraksi aku tadi? Eh bole plak hilang rasa sakit tu? Fed up la, aku ckp ngan Hubs. Mcm nak suruh operate je pon ada. By this time aku dah mula sound impatient kan? Notice the change in my attitude? Ntah dari mana dtg nya keberanian itu. Smlm ye ye takut, hari ni rasa cam kalo bole biar la sakit tu cepat2 dtg, can’t wait to meet my Baby dah.

Dah adat la bgn tido, aku jadi lapar. Nmpk Hubs bwk balik nasi lemak sebungkus atas meja, terus aku makan. Yum, sedapnya, abis licin aku sapu. Then aku bersila baca surat khabar yg Hubs beli. Tiba2, eh, sakit senggugut tu dtg lagi la. Mula2 sket aje, then rasa cam dah x leh nak duduk dah, kena baring. So aku pon naik la atas katil sambil bgtau Hubs yg sakit tu dtg balik.

1.20 petang
Makin lama makin kuat sakit tu, tp bole tahan la. X lama lepas tu sakit dia makin menjadi2. Aku time ni dah siap genggam tgn Hubs dah kejap2. Tiba2, burr… terasa mcm ada cecair keluar dari bawah tu. Ingatkan air ketuban aku dah pecah. Eh cepatnya, kata hati aku. Aku suruh Hubs tengokkan, air ke darah? Rupa2nya, yg keluar tu darah, byk plak tu mengalir kuar.

Terus panggil nurse. Nurse tu cam blur2, dia ckp dah turun tanda nak bersalin dah ni, nnt dia panggilkan Dr. Nurse tu pegi x lama, dalam 15 minit, tp itu la aku rasa antara 15 minit yg paling lama dlm hidup aku. Sebab apa, setiap 2 minit rasa kontraksi, dan setiap kali kontraksi, kuar darah membuak2 ikut situ.

Dlm menahan kesakitan tu, tiba2 rasa cam nak terberak. Aku ckp kat Hubs, kenapa rasa nak berak ni? Hubs pon dah panik gak masa ni, sbb setahu dia org nak bersalin mmg rasa nak berak. X lama tu dtg plak sensation cam nak push. Tp aku takut sbb Dr and nurse mmg no where in sight. Mana plak pegi Dr ni? Apa lama bebenor nak sampai nih?

1.35 petang
Rupenye Dr tu baru lps kuar dari Operation Theatre (OT) perform hysterectomy dekat patient dia yg lain. Masa dia masuk bilik aku aje, dia selak sket tgk darah dah byk, terus dia ckp dekat Hubs, ‘Saya x kan check bukaan dah lg, kita kena perform emergency C-section dekat your wife. Darah ni bukan tanda nak bersalin, ni darah drpd placenta previa dia ari tu, yg mungkin x naik abis’.

Ditakdirkan mmg aku nyer placenta tu x naik abis. So bila induce, pintu rahim tu nak terbuka, tp placenta ada lg attached kat situ, tu yg bleeding tu. Dr double checked ngan aku, Hospital Serdang pon kata dah naik kan? Aku angguk aje mengiyakan. Lagi Dr ckp, kalo dibiarkan lg lama kontraksi aku, lagi byk aku turun darah. Dlm masa yg sama ligat dia salinkan baju aku kpd baju surgery, cucuk drip, and prepped me up atas trolley utk dibawa turun ke OT. Sepanjang2 ni aku rasa kontraksi.

Aku minta Dr bius aku bg x sedar aje, tp Dr kata x leh sebab aku baru lps mkn, plak tu mkn nasi sebungkus. So kena la wat yg separuh sedar nyer. Bole plak masa aku disorong ke OT tu Hubs kata dia nak gi Solat Zohor dulu. Aku kata OK je la. Masa ni x larat nak pikir apa dah. Peringatan utk diri sendiri: Aku berhutang Solat Zohor, kena qadha nnt kering nifas.

1.50 petang
Dah masuk OT terus dia transfer aku atas operating table. Disuruhnya aku duduk melengkungkan belakang. Then dia bg bantal sebijik kat aku suh peluk sbb dia nak bg spinal injection kat aku. Disebabkan sakitnya kontraksi tu, bercampur ngan takutnya aku pada masa tu, and also panic bcoz darah dah meleleh2 kat kuar ke kaki, x terasa langsung jarum and catheter tu masuk.

Tak lama kaki aku kebas n hilang sensation. Lembik longlai siap nurse kena naikkan kaki aku ke atas. Then diaorg psgkan tabir atas dada aku, x bg tgk kot apa yg dibuat. Tgn aku cam diikat ke kiri dan kanan table. Ada gak terasa org spray kaki aku ngan air, rasanya standard procedure kot, nak check dah kebas ke belum. Masa ni bole rasa apa org buat, cuma x sakit. Aku rasa Dr masukkan catheter utk buang air kecil, sapu iodine (kot?) dekat area yg nak dibedah dsb nya. Mmg teramat cuak.

Dgn lafaz Bismillah Dr pon buat la incision tu. Yg first layer tu aku x sure bila masa dia start kerat, punya la tajam pisau dia. Then lapisan seterusnya, mungkin sbb aku berisi (ahem), mmg rasa cam org siang daging ayam. X reti la nak describe. It didn’t hurt, just a weird feeling. Aku bole rasa juga macam Dr letakkan besi yg nak tahan kasi bukaan tu terbuka luas. Lebih weird lg ialah apabila Dr tekan2 dan tolak2 atau renggut2 perut kau ke sana ke mari in an effort to take Baby out. X sakit, tp menakutkan. Masa ni aku x putus2 baca Lailaha illa anta Subhanaka inni kunu minaz zolimin. Ayat tu aje aku ingat. Lain2 dah lupa!

Punyala besar agaknya Baby ni, siap Dr yg operate tu kena mintak tolong Dr yg anaethetist tu plak tolakkan Baby kuar dari atas perut aku. Tiba2, aku dgr Dr ckp, ‘Forceps’. X lama lepas tu aku terdengar suara Baby merengek2 kecil. Maka pada saat itu, lahirlah Baby ke dunia fana ini dan official la aku menjadi seorg Ibu.

2.21 p.m.
Dr sambut Baby dgn ucapan Assalamualaikum…. Dr bgtau semua looks fine, Alhamdulillah. Aku dgn tersekat2 tanya Dr, ‘Baby girl ke boy?’. Dr terus bawakan Baby yg penuh dgn darah dan lendir tu menghadap aku, suh tgk sendiri. Punya la kuat kesan ubat tu, aku jadi groggy, x perasan dia punya part bawah tu boy ke girl, partly bcoz terlindung dek tali pusat Baby. Dr adjust tali pusat tu, and it was crystal clear la I have a baby girl!

Air mata aku automatically tumpah tanpa dapat disekat2. Mmg sebak yg teramat sgt, gembira sbb dah selamat melahirkan, gembira sebab penantian 9 bulan lebih dah berakhir, gembira sbb Baby sihat sempurna, sebak mengenangkan betapa 18 bulan terdahulu, aku dah masuk bilik OT yg sama ini utk menjalani procedure D&C selepas keguguran, yang mana aku masuk bilik OT pregnant, kuar dah hilang anak, this time plak, aku masuk pregnant, kuar dah jadi emak. Sungguh x bole nak citer kat org la perasaan mcm mana yg aku rasai masa ni. Dr anasthetist tu lap air mata aku perlahan2. Kemudian dia ckp, ‘Kita tidurkan you dulu ye’. Before I knew it, aku dah pon terlelap.

2.50 p.m.
Bgn2 je, segala nya dah siap. Tali pusat dah potong, placenta dah dikuarkan, aku dah dijahit, dibalut siap, dan disorong kuar dari Bilik OT. First to greet me was Hubs, followed by my parents, and also adik bongsu aku. Masa tu aku still menangis lg, much to the concerns of my parents. Diorg ingat aku sakit agaknya. Tp aku bgtau, these are tears of joy.

Then Hubs dtg bgtau dia baru lps iqamatkan Baby. Elok aje dia turun lepas solat Zohor tu diorg habis cucikan Baby, so terus aje la dia iqamatkan. Then Hubs tunjuk gambar and video Baby punya first few moments of life kat aku. Subhanallah… anak aku ke ni? Comey nye… cam x caya…

X lama lps tu aku disorong ke bilik wad aku semula. Then dtg la nurse bawakan Baby kepada aku, siap letakkan Baby kat celah ketiak aku utk aku pangku. Seronok x terkata, Ya Allah! Inilah rupanya Baby aku yg aktif sgt dlm perut aku tu, ini la rupanya kaki yg menendang2 aku dari dalam, ini la dia Baby yg aku kandungkan ke hulu ke hilir selama 38 minggu. Subahanallah, she is so perfect!

Begitu la lebih kurang pengalaman aku melahirkan Baby. Alhamdulillah segalanya selamat. Dgn ini, berakhir la journey oyis to Baby, journey yg penuh cubaan, dugaan, dan sebagainya. Bermula la journey aku through motherhood. And I tell you, if I thought being pregnant was hard, motherhood is even harder, but I’m not one to complain coz the journey is a a thousand times more challenging and exciting at the same time. I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Thank you Allah!

Ni gambar aku tgh teresak2 pgg Baby 1st time. Okay, laugh all you want at my poor attempt to hide my aurat. Sesungguhnya nak menyiapkan birth story ni pon dah amik masa seminggu, nak edit gmbr pakai photoshop? oh, mintak maaf la... x sempat ... anggap la tu surgery cap aku, x pon anggap je la rambut aku biru cam Marge Simpson hehe.... When you've become a mother, small things like these dah x kisah dah...

We're Home

There's no place like home.

Man, ain't that true. Or at least, in my case, there's no place like my parent's home, heheh.

Alhamdulillah Baby dah discaj dari hospital ptg sat ni pkl 5.30 ptg. Hari mula2 masuk, level bilirubin dia 16.5 mg/dL pada sebelah paginya tu, then ptg nya lepas phototherapy dah turun jadi 14.7 mg/dL. Hari Selasa pg, level turun sket lg jadi 14.2 mg/dL. Then Rabu pg, 12.4 mg/dL. Ptg td wat repeat blood test, dah turun lg jd 11.1 mg/dL, so Dr bg balik, Alhamdulillah....

Baby pon dah x nmpk kuning dah, dah nmpk lebih berseri2. Aku rasa happy n bersyukur sgt2.... Harap2 jaundice dia gone for good la, and level bilirubin dia dah x naik2 lg. Yg penting Dr suh breast feed kan dia lebih kerap and make sure dia berak lawas. Lg satu, mungkin akan slow sket jaundice tu nak hilang completely coz kami berlainan blood group. Aku group 'O', Baby plak group 'B', so this kinda complication is expected. X pe la, the key thing is aku keep hydrated with my milk always.

Terima kasih pd kengkawan n readers semua kerana turut sama mendoakan Aisyah dan memberikan sokongan moral yg x putus2. Semoga Allah Taala membalas jasa kalian semua dgn mempermudahkan segala urusan korg dunia n akhirat, amiin...