Kadang-kadang, Rindu Itu Datang...

Couldn't pin point a specific reason, but I was feeling rather melancholic today. I'd put it down to  low sugar level as I was fasting (first day ganti posa uols!), but it wasn't until later in the day that I realised that today is the 22 April. Which means that Umi has left us for 8 months now today. It still doesn't feel real, sometimes. Since I was fasting, of coz that made me think of Eid this year, and how different it will be without my Mom around, so urmm... yeah... that just put me in a downward spiral all afternoon   :(

A friend who'd lost her Mom had once told me - 'Nanti tiap2 kali tarikh tu dtg, akan rasa down and sedih x pasal2, walaupun kita x teringat langsung pun tarikh tu dah berulang untuk bulan2 seterusnya'. Mula2 mcm x brp percaya sgt, tp rupanya betul. Oh how so true!

Don't get me wrong. I'm not wallowing. Air mata pun x keluar (sengaja sekat) tp, kata org Kelantan, mlm2 rasa kesik jg. Just, kdg2, rindu itu datang...

I miss u Umi. Al-fatihah........