January 15th

Heh.. Kata je berazam nak teruskan berblogging, tp dah hari ke-15 slps tahun baru 2014 baru la dpt hapdet satu. Aduhaii... 

Hari tu unpacked a few more boxes from masa weols duk kat Plymouth dulu, mostly toys la tu Aisyah (and Zayd)'s delight.Tp terjumpa jg this desk light, oh kenangan!

Kenapa kenangan? 

Sbb lampu inilah byk berjasa masa bertungkus lumus nak siapkan PhD hari tu. Masa tgh kejar masa tulis thesis dari rumah tu, sampai ke dinihari bercekang mata, haaa... lampu ni lah yang mencerahkan keadaan. Nak buat mcm mana, duduk pon di rumah yg 1-bed flat. Aisyah tido mesti bergelap, kalo ada lampu yg terpasang dia cpt sedar, kesian plak, sbb esoknya dia nak bangkit pi sekolah. So inilah komprominya. Pasang lampu study, tp beli yg kecik je, cukup2 utk tgk kertas dpn mata dan skrin. Alhamdulillah... dgn lampu murah beli di Wilkinson ni aje, dpt jgk ijazah PhD tu in the ene, dgn izinNya...

Itu psl la sentimental. 

Memandangkan ni dah dkt setahun aku balik, meh kita flash back tgk gmbr tgh crunching utk viva (almost a year ago, that was, can you believe it?). Masa ni January 2013, study dkt bilik carel in the library sbb esok lusa nak viva dah. I was 33 weeks pregnant with Zayd at the time. Itu psl sembap satu mcm.

PS: Today would have been my Mom's 57th birthday. It hurts so much to write this, but I cannot just ignore the fact that I miss her so, SO MUCH. She was so young. I'd only got to spend 7 months with her after I came back from the UK. It didn't seem fair (tapi Allah Maha Adil). Sometimes, I'd wondered, if I knew before I started my PhD that she was going to leave this Earth in 4 years time, would I have gone to the UK anyway? Probably not. Tapi itulah rahsia yang Allah Maha Mengetahui. I never even got to spend her birthday after I returned (I came back last year on January 28. Her birthday was January 15). I'd always thought that the first birthday back, I would be a bit steadier financially, and I would have loved to treat her to a day out shopping, or pampering ourselves silly at the spa was the order of the day, and of course, a family dinner out was a sure thing. But God has other plans for her. I know that she is in a much, much better place now. Certainly in better hands. I Miss You, Dear Umi. Al-fatihah...